Posted by: Brittany | April 19, 2010

Life After College

After spending 17 years as a student I have found myself having a hard time adjusting to life in the “real” world.  I’ve spent most of my life going to school and now that I have lost the identity of being a student I find myself not sure on what to do next.  Going into college I had a plan.  At the time I knew what I was aiming to do.  But like many things in life, my plans did not go as I thought they would.  I found myself in a major in which I didn’t know what I was going to do with and at the moment I still don’t what the next step I should take should be.  Sometimes it feels like the world around us expects us to transition into this new life so easily and effortlessly.  Taking a year off to them is understandable.  But sometimes you don’t figure things out in a year.  For me, I am approaching that year mark since I graduated from college and there is tremendous pressure for me to hurry up and decide on a career and start working on it.  Truth be told, when you have no clue as to what career you want to follow it makes it difficult to take a leap into that next step.  For me, I want to be sure that it’s something I want to do before I start doing what it takes to obtain the position that I want.  I don’t want to start something I find myself regretting or hating what I’ve gotten myself with.

What I hate the most is that people make all these comments, but they don’t know what is going on in your mind.  People keep asking me am I going back to school or what?  The answer to that question is “yes,” I want to go back to school, but not yet.  I’m at this turning point in my life where you don’t just go back to school not knowing what you are wanting to do.  You have to have an interest, a plan, a desire to specialize in something.  It is not a matter of whether or not I am going back to school for me; it is a matter of when and why.  I wish people would be more understanding that I want to make the right decision for my life in choosing a career.  I don’t just want to pick something because it sounds good.

With the way things currently are in the “real” world, everyone is fighting for jobs.  Making it even more difficult for people like me, who have spent most of their lives as a student, and have no real work experience to stand out or get noticed for a job.  Does my lack of work experience mean I’m not qualified, no.  But I do think it puts us at a disadvantage.  Sometimes I wonder what good does a college education do if it can’t even help you get a job in today’s economy.  My biggest problem is that I went into a major that does not have a built in career.  I have a degree in biological sciences and the career possibilities are endless.  So narrowing things down has been tough.

What I really need is someone to talk this through with it or just some advice.  Until I find some help, I will continue to try to figure out things on my own.  Hopefully I get things figured out sooner rather than later.  Fingers crossed.

Posted by: Brittany | January 1, 2010

My Goals for 2010

The new year marks the start of New Year’s resolutions.  Most of these resolutions are destined to never make it past January.  There are a few who manage to stick with their “resolutions”.  Really calling them resolutions is just a fancier way of saying goals.  But for some reason when you call them goals it seems more relevant for the entire year to me.  When do you hear people talking about resolutions after January?  People set goals throughout the year don’t they?  No matter what you call them the purpose is the same, they are the things that we are striving or determined to do.  I thought to myself what do I want to accomplish in 2010????

-Put myself more out there, open and vulnerable.

-Get out of this shell I’ve put myself in since moving back to Fresno.

-Make more of an effort in meeting new people, making new friends, reconnecting with old friends.

-Figure out my career path and find an actual job

-Do the things that I love and enjoy life

-Grow with Christ and be more in His Word

-Be more active

-Learn to cook more

-Smile and laugh more

-Find myself a man. haha.  I heard someone say that last night and I thought it was a good one.

-Blog more, not for anyone’s benefit but my own so I can always look back.

-And most of all be happy

I may add more to the list as the week and maybe month progresses, but I think that this is a solid start for now.

Posted by: Brittany | December 31, 2009

2009 Wrap-Up

2009 is just hours away from being over and with the end of 2009 comes the end of another decade.  All over the internet and newspaper one can find top this and top that.  I thought I would take some time to list my “Top Moments”.  A year is eventful enough as it is; decade has even more to look back on, but here goes my top moments from  the year along with some of my favorite things.

Top 2009 Moments:

Jan 2009 – January held the start of my last semester of college (for now).  With this last semester would be the classes that would consume my life until May.  Anatomy, physiology, virology, and a research seminar.  Life pretty much consisted of these classes, though there was a greater emphasis on studying anatomy.  I found that class to be one of the most interesting classes that I had taken.  I think this was the most I had ever studied, but I had to graduate.  That was about it until May.

May 2009 – May 16 was Graduation Day for me.  It came much faster than I had expected it.  In case you didn’t hear, we had First Lady Michelle Obama as our special commencement speaker.  I was not thrilled by this idea.  It was an experience that I care not to experience.  With all the security and procedures that were required because of her presence, it became a bigger pain than it was worth.  What should have been a celebration of the graduates turned out to be more of an Obama fest and less about us.  I would have preferred the original plans for the ceremony.  At least I have a story to tell for the ages.  A few weeks following graduation I learned that I passed all my classes and I had never been happier to see a C – in physiology.  I was even more pleased that I still graduated with a 3.09 despite the challenges I faced which leaves me still in the running for future graduate schools.

June/July 2009 – I tried volunteering a couple of physical therapy offices and did not like it at all which left me with a big question mark on what to do with my life.  I also began doing childcare for Tuesday morning bible studies at church.  The family went to Morro Bay several times, even taking Luke, my 5 year old cousin, one time; that was an experience.

August 2009 – I was a leader at VBS at church.  I had a really great group this year and really enjoyed and had a lot of fun this year.  The family went the Cambria for vacation and it has become one of my favorite place to visit.

November 2009 – This was quite an eventful month.  Mom went back to work for the first time in 22 years.  Her first week back subbing, she got the H1N1 flu.  But she didn’t know it and spent almost a week before going to the doctor which landed her in the hospital.  Not only did she get H1N1 she developed double pneumonia.  Considering the seriousness of all of this, we were very lucky that she only had to spend 4 days in the hospital.  God’s power was clearly present through this whole situation.

December 2009 – I took and passed the CBEST the first time and the student becomes the teacher….I’m just happy that I can start subbing.

I spent the last 6 months on this path that I felt was going no where in particular.  I’m still not heading in any one direction.  I feel that with passing the CBEST and being able to sub, it provides me with a chance to see what opportunities I may come upon in the future.  What ever the upcoming year may hold, I have a feeling that 2010 will be a good year.


In the last 10 years I have seen things and styles come and go and come again.  The beginning of the decade, boy bands and pop groups were all the rage and now they are a thing of the past; though some individuals still stand.  Britney Spears became the reason that no one seems to be able to spell my name right anymore.  I had friends come and go.  A few moved away and with some we just grew apart.  I also made some friends that will probably last a lifetime.  I went to more funerals than I can remember or count on my fingers.  I lost some people that I really loved and cried more than I ever had.  Amongst the sadness there was some great joy.  My three cousins were born during these years.  I really love those kids.  I graduated from Jr. High and High School as one of the Valedictorians.  I became passionate about art, golf, and a fan USC football.  I discovered I had talents I didn’t know I had.  I got over some of my fears through debate and forensics.  I started and graduated college and had a number of adventures along the way.  The great thing about blogging is that I can go back anytime and look at all that has happened.  There is so much more I could write about right now about the past 10 years, but this post is getting a bit long.  The one thing that stayed constant through all these years was my relationship with God.  No matter what, I have learned through the years to always trust Him.

Posted by: Brittany | November 30, 2009

The Fork in the Road

It is the unknown that is the scariest thing in life at times.  The wondering and not knowing what is going to happen next.  There are times in life where we think we have things figured out.  A time where we think we know each step we are going to take and then we encounter this fork in the road.  And one is no longer sure what lies ahead.  It can be a bit scary trying to decide what path to choose, which path to commit to and follow.  It is unknown where this path is going to take you in life.  Afraid of making the wrong choice one will stand still at the fork, not knowing what to do, waiting…

Waiting for what exactly?  As Christians this fork in the road is a bit less scary.  We have a God that can guide us on where we should go next; what to do next with our lives.  We can rely on Him, We can trust our lives with in His hands.  He loves us and wants what is best for us.  We need to have faith in Him.  He already knows the plans for our lives.  We just need to listen for him and we need to trust and follow Him.  The response may not come when one wants it.  One may be stuck at the fork for awhile trying to figure things out.  But when one needs to choose a path and move forward, God will guide one the direction He wants one to go.

And until then, until I get to that point where I know what God wants me to do next; I will continue to pray and I will continue to listen for what He wants for me because I know He knows the plans for me.

Jeremiah 29:11-14

11‘For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.12‘Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will  listen to you.13‘You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.14‘I will be found by you,’ declares the LORD, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you,’ declares the LORD, ‘and I will bring you back to the place from where I sent you into exile.’

Posted by: Brittany | November 9, 2009

Life as a Graduate

I’ve been away from the blogging world for quite some time now.  A lot has happened since my last post.  I hadn’t even graduated at that time.  So a quite recap:

May 16 I graduated from the University of California, Merced with a degree in Biological Sciences.  I spent the whole day in the 100 degree heat all for Michelle Obama.  Her being there and giving a quick 15 minute speech before leaving in black SUVs was not worth all the hassle we all had to deal with.  By the time it came to get our diploma cases everyone was ready to go.  Some people actually did leave right after the walked across the stage.  Gowns were worn just for the stage and were either unzipped or off before and after.  I really would have preferred the original plan of having a night ceremony with fireworks over the lake.  The only cool thing I saw was the secret service and snipers on the tops of the buildings.

Summer began after that.  During June and July the family went on several day trips to Morro Bay and Pismo.  Morro Bay has become one of our favorite places to visit.  We go to Pismo to eat at Splash and then travel to Morro Bay to eat at Giovanni’s Fish Market.  In August, I spent being a leader at VBS.  I had such a great group this year.  It was amazing to see God moving  and working through my group.  They all really understood God’s love by the end of the week and I felt so blessed to have gotten to know these kids.  The following week my family went on our family vacation.  We went to Cambria for the first time.  I fell in love with this place.  We stayed right across the street from the beach at the Sand Pebbles Inn.  It had this nice cozy feel to it.  In San Simeon we went to Hearst Castle, which was interesting, and Elephant Seal Beach/Park (though elephant seals have made me feel uncomfortable ever since reading the Island of the Blue Dolphins in 4th grade).  There is some really good food there too.  J.J’s Pizza (Cambria) and this sandwich shop that’s in this general store in San Simeon are delicious.  While there we went to Cayucos and Morro Bay since it’s like driving to Clovis.  That’s the traveling I did.

Last time I wrote I said was thinking about going into physical therapy.  Well, over the summer I tried volunteer work at two different offices (one specialized), but I did not like it at all.  There was no passion and I dreaded going volunteering.  So this has forced me to re-evaluate what I’m going to do with my future.  I’ve been trying to figure out what I like to do.  So now I’m considering a non-traditional route and going into law that relates to biology/health/medical.  But who knows, I may end up just getting my masters and working in a lab.  I just really want to be sure before I start anything because I’m the kind of person that once I start something, I’m committed.  I don’t want it to only be what I think is right for me, but what God thinks is right for me.  I’ve spent a lot of time in prayer over this.  I want to do what God wants me to do, but I’m still not sure what that is. But I trust Him that everything is going to work out.

One thing that has come from living at home again and not currently having a job is a renewal of my relationship with Christ.  My walk with God is strong.  I am right with God.  I trust Him with my life and decisions.  He has control and I’m okay with that.  Even with all the unknown, I have this peace knowing I can rely on Him.  I think I would be losing my mind if it were not for my relationship with Him.

My recap turned into an essay.


Posted by: Brittany | April 28, 2009

19 days….

My roommate just informed me that there is 19 days left of school until graduation. I still find it difficult to believe that I’m about to graduate college. Didn’t I just finish high school? As much as I’m looking forward to graduation and taking a break from school, I’m not so thrilled about entering the real world and having to actually worry about things like having health insurance (something I’ve never had to worry about). There are things I am looking forward to like shadowing and seeing if physical therapy is really the route i want to take. I’m also looking forward to moving back to Fresno and actually being able to get involved in church. I’m not sure if I’m going to go back to working in preschool or if I’ll try something new. After the messages the last couple of weeks, I’ve thought about maybe working in Jr. High. I just remember how much of an impact my Jr. High leaders had in my life and I think it would be cool to give back in that way. As scary as the near future can be at times, I know that God has great things planned for me and I just have to allow Him to use me in the ways that He wants.

Posted by: Brittany | April 16, 2009

Here Comes Obama

It’s 12 am and I should be going to bed right now b/c I have class at 9 am, but it just got done with my manuscript for physio and I’m kind of awake.  So here’s a quick update on what’s been going on.  I graduate in a month, it’s hard to believe…didn’t I just graduate high school.  Michelle Obama is speaking at graduation and I am not happy about this.  I could right a whole post about this and I probably will after midterms.  But I hate the fact that our graduation is no longer about the first graduating class of UC Merced, but instead it’s becoming an “Obama Rally” as the Right Side Paper put it.  It seems the school has become more concerned about accommodating the media and less about our famlies.  We have to have tickets and lots of securtiy…great…I feel this is going to take much of the fun and joy and celebration that should have came from this event.  Now if your friends and family want to come your going to have to say sorry the school won’t let me have anymore tickets, the news apparently comes before you.  Last I checked, was graduation suppose to be about the students, not the speaker.  I guess that just isn’t the case here.  The best I can do is email the vice chancellor. 

In the mean time, I working on setting up shadowing a physical therapist.  I’m hoping that eventually that this will become a paid position.  And by that I mean I hope the offer my a PT aide job.  I’m 99.9% sure that this is what I want to go into.  The only other idea I’ve though about is going to PA school, but I think PT is a better fit.  That’s all for now.  I write again when it’s not so late.

Posted by: Brittany | March 5, 2009

NKOTB is coming to Fresno

I’m not gonna lie, when I heard this on the radio, a part of me really did/does want to go this.  I even thought about calling my great aunt to get her seats (and by that i mean she owns seats in the save mart center)….

Posted by: Brittany | February 18, 2009

Life Coming at Me

There’s a lot to write about since this is my first blog of 2009.  So I thought I give a brief summary of what’s been going on in my life and my mind.

It’s hard to believe how fast time really does fly.  I’m already in my last semester of college, well of my undergraduate years of college.  And I’ve finally figured out what I want to do after I graduate.  Getting there will be the challenge however.  I always knew I wanted to go to the a health related field, I used to think that it was pharmacy that I wanted to go into.  But when I stopped to think about what I enjoyed I saw that working with kids is where my heart is.  This is something that God revealed to me after much prayer.  Since I was not made to be a nurse, I’ve decided that I’m going to go into physical therapy with an emphasis in pedriatrics. The only problem is that I’m going to have to wait until next year to even consider applying.  So I’m praying that I’ll be able to find a job during this time (one with benefits) and get to do some shadowing as well.

This semester is promising to keep me busy.  The library’s 4th floor has become my new home.  I think I spend more time here than at the house.  I’m really working hard to try and keep up with my classes b/c  I want to not only graduate, but it would be nice to get a decent grade in the classes.  I’ve got my schedule cut out for me.  I’m talking phsyiology, anatomy, virology, and a stupid research seminar.  Anatomy is proving to be my favorite class and most interesting which is good since I have a lot to do for it.

One thing that I’ve learned in life is that God places people in your life when you need them the most.  Sometimes those friendship last and sometimes they last just long enough for those people to do what they can in your life.  It’s a fact of life that not all friendships can last forever.  But God knew that I needed a person like Steph Wong in my life.  Steph is someone I’ve known for a semester now, but I wasn’t that close to her.  I had been praying for God to bring a strong christian friend into my life and He did just that.  Steph is someone that I can talk to, someone that encourages me, and someone who challenges me in my walk.  I’ve never had someone like this here in Merced so it’s pretty cool.

And to be completely random…this is the phone that I want.  While the majority of Americans would like to have an iPhone, I would like to be different and get this….Samsung Eternity…..

I've been waiting for at&t to come out with this and at the end of 2008 they did

I've been waiting for at&t to come out with a Samsung touch phone

Posted by: Brittany | December 5, 2008

All That One Needs

I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not a huge fan of Christian music.  Don’t ask me why, I just haven’t been able to ever really get into it.  I was channel surfing as I was driving to class the other day because every channel that I listen to was on commercial.  I came across this song and the lyrics really just kind of hit me.  I’ve been kind of caught with life and relationships that this was kind of a reminder to me about life and how in the end God’s love is all really one needs.  So here they are….

By Your Side (Tenth Avenue North)

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don’t turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

‘Cause I’ll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don’t fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I’ll never let you go

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